That's how life is...

Emm...


These last couple of week have been quite tuff... My life and dreams have been under pressure. Sometimes it doesn't matter how much do you want something... if this plan is not the same that God designed for you...there is nothing you can do.You have to understand that we can see no further than the end of my nose, and it is for the same reason that I sometime sis hard to deal with God's will.The thing is that... I'm not travelling to the states...next semester, it is heartbreaking situation for me because since I enter to the Uni... I've been working for reachinf this goal and I couldn't do it...I mean the situation at the end wasn't the best one for me in order to get the scholarship. My life has been like hell since I knew that I wouldn't have that chance next semester... I know there are people who are suffering more than I do, I really know that but... honestly I'm the only one who can tell how I worked for that... and It is so frustrating...my heart cries every night trying to understand why... why me.I'm gonna be so alone next semester 'cause all my friends are travelling... I feel like a LOSER... during my whole life I have been feeling like shit.I'm nobody.... I've never won anything...


I really hope that, someday I can tell that I'm happy with who I am.


I just wanna wake up feeling so lucky to be me.